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03 March 2011 @ 05:47 pm
walk in the dust  


so this... evolved, into something more than i thought it would. my discovery of paper textures may have contributed to how this happened, i don't know, but we'll chalk it up to pretty things and the fact that i am a big rolling ball of feelings when it comes to the kids and an even bigger ball of feelings when you add to it that craptastic ending they got. i got stuck somewhere between 'how is this so right' and an attempt to see things from a different pov (in the midst of my re-read) i just can't. believe. how wrong i was for potter's endgame ship(s). this mix is my feelings because i can't word properly how much i love my kids, all my kids. they fill me with feelings that will kill me. eventually. i can't see any of them completely at peace in the future. there are rows full of accusation. resolve to suffer the lot that they've been cast. illegitimate children as souvenirs of a love greater than words. everything stuck in some kind of suspension. a limbo that feels like floating and sinking in every direction. a feeling incapable of being controlled. can't move forward. can't go back. so stay where you are. be as still as you can while an ocean's worth of turmoil gnaws at you from the inside out.


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beat (health, life and fire) :: thao with the get down stay down
i wear him like a habit
in the lining of my jacket



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dirty cartoons :: menomena
you'll keep me honest for old time's sake
i'm begging of you, go home, go home



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nice fox :: rosebuds
don't tempt the old owl in the tree
and it don't mean nothing at all



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keep yourself warm :: frightened rabbit
and the room fills with steam evaporates disappears
my point of entry is the same way that i leave



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queen black acid :: menomena
i don't know how i missed the signs
i must have passed by them a hundred times



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i can feel a hot one :: manchester orchestra
make it so i don't have to try the faces always stay the same
so i'll face the fact that i'm just fine



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sister :: mumford & sons
don't test the ones you love it'll only tear us down
if you want to feel alive then learn to love your ground



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03:45 no sleep :: cardigans
i've always been too lame to see what's before me
and i know nothing sweeter than champagne from last new years



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give a little love :: noah and the whale
my heart is bigger than the earth and though life is what gave it love first
life is not all that it's worth cos life is fleeting yeah but i love you



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widths and curves :: ohbijou
our eyes speak of feeling too consumed by all of this
please I am asking for this weight of hearts to lift



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no expectations :: soulsavers
our love was like the water that splashes on a stone
our love is like our music it's here and then it's gone



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.zip & art
 
 
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
Current Music: queen black acid ~ menomena
 
 
 
Sunny: HP tensionsunny_serenity on March 4th, 2011 07:25 pm (UTC)
lol! well i hope you enjoy it ^_^