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07 May 2007 @ 10:29 am
Grasp  
Title: Grasp
Rating: Even the little kiddies can have a go... that is if they understand ‘adult thematic elements’ and ‘fantasy violence’.
Summary: The long term fallout for First Strike
Spoilers: Majorly for 3x20 First Strike and minorly for 3x06 The Real World.
Disclaimer: All your bases belongs to thems over there.
A/N: Beta'd by the loverly alianne, whose suggestions I took. *tackle hugs* As promised on Friday of last week, here's fic. At first it started with the 'against regs' narrative which involved the IOA and SGC and la dee dah and has been done. Then I remembered something somebody the man who owns my fandom soul said on a commentary about throwing out the reason for writing something and then you get something else that's better than what you intended and he was right. But I'm not really sure I struck the right balance here with Elizabeth's voice (cos I can't write her for beans!) so I went with the general 'I am frustrated! Hear me ROAR!' approach. So, sorry if it sucks.



Grasp


Being told what to do was never a favourite for anybody, especially when that anybody had gotten used to doing the telling. It was an adjustment she had to make. A compromise. That was her specialty after all. She just never thought she’d be the one to concede so drastically.

Maybe it wasn’t so bad. They had lost contact with Earth, so, no chance of being recalled. No board or command to report to. There was no one to tell her that she couldn’t be in Atlantis because of her condition. She knew they would find a way to revoke her job if they did know about it. Her legs were broken, not her ability to lead.

Still, there was a lot of adjustment being made. Before, she had always been the one to govern where she went and how quickly she moved to get there. Now, there was no room to change her mind halfway to her destination and pick a new route just because she enjoyed the view better. Her course was now plotted day in and day out. Elizabeth let go a frustrated sigh. She was the tide of the ocean confined to a pond.

She cursed her body for dictating a large portion of her life. Elizabeth supposed it was payback for being in the right place at the wrong time. It was as if her body was saying it was her own fault for getting caught up in the curiosity of what they were facing instead of keeping command of the situation. It was infuriating.

Then she would be reminded of the people she was on the run with. Teyla was encouraging her body to heal in the Athosian way. Ronon was helping her to keep upper modalities in shape. And Rodney was working on nerve regeneration with Keller. So far they had only begun to scratch the surface of the technology, which meant she had to do things the old fashioned way for now: physical therapy. She was learning to be patient, more patient than usual.

And yet for all her confinement she was still in motion. Lately John had taken to asking her what view she’d like to wake up to and conveniently parked the city at just the right spot so it would be the first thing she saw when her eyes opened. She surmised it was part of distracting her from the long wait.

He made her an astronaut of sorts. Not the kind she had imagined being as a kid, but nonetheless traipsing about space where the only thing separating her from the void was that shield which failed to do exactly that. She couldn’t be cross with an inanimate piece of technology; it was after all keeping her from being blown off her balcony at this moment.

Her balcony.

In space.

Not a lot of people could say that. She stopped thinking for a moment to take that in.

“Like the view?”

“Yeah.” She smiled up at him as he approached. “Where are we?”

“Middle of ‘don’t’, left of ‘know’. Radek’s coming up with something, trying to plot a Course.” He paused. “That didn’t sound very Picard like did it?”

“No.” She grinned. “Not really.”

“I am the suckiest Captain in this galaxy.”

“Oh, I’m sure there’s a ship out here more lost than we are.”

“Like ‘Voyager’, maybe?”

“Maybe.” She smirked.

They had been watching too much Star Trek lately. But what else was she going to do after all the healing and therapy while recovering? She needed something mindless and entertaining or she’d go bonkers. At least that’s what John told her. She had had enough of aliens.

“Ah,” he returned in kind. “But they made it home.”

At the mention of home her weighing of the pros and cons tipped for the latter.

No, it wasn’t going home she was worried about. It was leaving it.

The realisation of that made him kneel to her level. He waited for her to look at him.

“I’m not taking you back until you’re out of this chair.”

Elizabeth didn’t need to search his eyes for sincerity. She knew he meant it and she found herself grateful once more. He was keeping them lost on purpose.

“It’s not forever. This...” he glanced at her chair with as much disgust as she had for it.

She knew John blamed himself. He thought he should’ve taken off a split second earlier or faster. He thought he should have anticipated the Asurans success to avoid his failure. The truth was there was no blame to pass around. Something or someone would always be their enemy bent on destroying them and if it wasn’t one there would be another in its place. They would always be fighting as long as they dared to live in this world. Elizabeth needed him to understand that.

“This...” she placed a hand purposefully on her chair and one of assurance on his forearm, “isn’t forever.”

Some of his guilt absolved with the gesture and with the hint of a grin he let her feet down and pulled her up.

“Take a walk with me.”

“John...”

“It’s a short walk,” he encouraged. “You can do short walks.”

He held on to her as she took half a step closer to the rail. And then another. Despite the pain it felt good to be telling her body what to do for a change. She was up and about. Her hands clung to the rails edge keeping her upright. All that time with Ronon was paying off.

John let her stand for a moment giving her back what she had lost.

Her independence.

After a few seconds he braced her back against his chest as he took the rest of her weight in his arms.

“I’ve got you,” he whispered as she relaxed into him.

“I know,” she sighed.


Fin
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atlantis_babe34atlantis_babe34 on May 7th, 2007 09:29 pm (UTC)
After a few seconds he braced her back against his chest as he took the rest of her weight in his arms.

“I’ve got you,” he whispered as she relaxed into him.

“I know,” she sighed.



aww that was beautiful
Sunny: SGA Sparky Iris lyricsunny_serenity on May 8th, 2007 09:19 pm (UTC)
Oh wow, a quotey review. Thanks!
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Sunny: SGA Sparky personal what?sunny_serenity on May 8th, 2007 09:21 pm (UTC)
Yeah, unfortunately the people in charge !!$%#$@!@#!@$*%&!@ *ahem* I mean, thanks for the R&R.
Andy: love3ankareeda on May 7th, 2007 10:46 pm (UTC)
*melts* So wonderful. *happy sigh*
Sunny: SGA Sparky *le sigh*sunny_serenity on May 8th, 2007 09:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks. The *le sigh* is always a good thing.
help, i'm alive ;;odakota_rose on May 7th, 2007 11:39 pm (UTC)
Wow.. That was gorgeous, and it's such a John thing to keep them lost until she was back on her feet ;)

And I decided I have to included the fact that I absolutely love the song 'Protection' XD

Sunny: SGA Sparky reliefsunny_serenity on May 8th, 2007 09:23 pm (UTC)
Thank you.

And yeah, I didn't realise how apropo that song was for this fic. Huh.
help, i'm alive ;;: sparky!odakota_rose on May 9th, 2007 01:12 am (UTC)
I was wondering if that was intentional or not, but either way it really works for them =)
Sunny: SGA Sparky balancesunny_serenity on May 10th, 2007 03:16 am (UTC)
Nope. Not purposefully. Pure serendipity. Not unlike Sparky itself. And how cool does that make my media player? Awwwesome.
help, i'm alive ;;: sparky!odakota_rose on May 10th, 2007 03:21 am (UTC)
*grin*
You sound like me, lol.
It seems like every so often my media player has a stroke of genius and starts playing the perfect song/songs for my mood, and then you end up with a random most of media player love from me XD
kathgrr: SGA Weir Never Giving Upkathgrr on May 7th, 2007 11:58 pm (UTC)
“I’m not taking you back until you’re out of this chair.”

Elizabeth didn’t need to search his eyes for sincerity. She knew he meant it and she found herself grateful once more. He was keeping them lost on purpose.


Wow - now if that's not love I don't know what is.

Most assuringly a good story.=)
Sunny: SGA Sparky OTPsunny_serenity on May 8th, 2007 09:25 pm (UTC)
Hey look, another quotey review. I guess that means it wasn't that sucky. Thank you! Such a confidence booster you are.
Vicky: [Atlantis] Sparky - Not Alonevickysg1 on May 8th, 2007 09:49 am (UTC)
That's lovely! Good job!
Sunny: SGA Sparky fire/watersunny_serenity on May 8th, 2007 09:26 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
ardently blue: return sparky hikariaoihikari on May 8th, 2007 06:38 pm (UTC)
dude! have i told you how much i love your fics? no? well let me squee on you some more eh?

awesome awesome job as always! XD!!! I loved it!

and srsy, john's gots lizzeh 4evah no? :3

*huggles and loves tight* XD!!!
Sunny: SGA Sparky 50/50sunny_serenity on May 8th, 2007 09:31 pm (UTC)
*glomps*
ardently blue: spoiler wench coming thru!aoihikari on May 8th, 2007 09:34 pm (UTC)
psst: you want a surprise? come over to my LJ... :D
kes: SGA sparky closet sexemily_sheppard on May 8th, 2007 07:22 pm (UTC)
“I’m not taking you back until you’re out of this chair.”

Elizabeth didn’t need to search his eyes for sincerity. She knew he meant it and she found herself grateful once more. He was keeping them lost on purpose.


aaw, he would SO do that for her! That is so sweet... and terribly sad

I so very much loved this!
Sunny: SGA Sparky reliefsunny_serenity on May 8th, 2007 09:33 pm (UTC)
I love these quotey review thingies! Thanks so much! I love Sparkys versatility.
kesemily_sheppard on May 9th, 2007 06:24 pm (UTC)
Well, it deserves to be said when there's an amazing line like that ;)
Sunny: SGA John Unravel lyricsunny_serenity on May 10th, 2007 03:20 am (UTC)
*blushes* *falls over* Oh see, lookit, you made my head the size of China. Help! I've fallen and can't get up.
kes: TW John in specsemily_sheppard on May 10th, 2007 03:30 pm (UTC)
aaw, poor you. The traumas of getting compliments... :D
Sunny: Buffy sarcastic?sunny_serenity on May 11th, 2007 03:28 am (UTC)
Hehe, you're funny. Wanna be friends? *blinks bashfully*
kes: SG1 geeksemily_sheppard on May 11th, 2007 05:04 pm (UTC)
*grins* Sure. Love new friends *huggles new friend*
Sunny: HP OotP Harmony hugsunny_serenity on May 11th, 2007 09:30 pm (UTC)
Cool. ^_^ *huggles back*