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03 March 2011 @ 05:47 pm
walk in the dust  


so this... evolved, into something more than i thought it would. my discovery of paper textures may have contributed to how this happened, i don't know, but we'll chalk it up to pretty things and the fact that i am a big rolling ball of feelings when it comes to the kids and an even bigger ball of feelings when you add to it that craptastic ending they got. i got stuck somewhere between 'how is this so right' and an attempt to see things from a different pov (in the midst of my re-read) i just can't. believe. how wrong i was for potter's endgame ship(s). this mix is my feelings because i can't word properly how much i love my kids, all my kids. they fill me with feelings that will kill me. eventually. i can't see any of them completely at peace in the future. there are rows full of accusation. resolve to suffer the lot that they've been cast. illegitimate children as souvenirs of a love greater than words. everything stuck in some kind of suspension. a limbo that feels like floating and sinking in every direction. a feeling incapable of being controlled. can't move forward. can't go back. so stay where you are. be as still as you can while an ocean's worth of turmoil gnaws at you from the inside out.


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beat (health, life and fire) :: thao with the get down stay down
i wear him like a habit
in the lining of my jacket



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dirty cartoons :: menomena
you'll keep me honest for old time's sake
i'm begging of you, go home, go home



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nice fox :: rosebuds
don't tempt the old owl in the tree
and it don't mean nothing at all



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keep yourself warm :: frightened rabbit
and the room fills with steam evaporates disappears
my point of entry is the same way that i leave



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queen black acid :: menomena
i don't know how i missed the signs
i must have passed by them a hundred times



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i can feel a hot one :: manchester orchestra
make it so i don't have to try the faces always stay the same
so i'll face the fact that i'm just fine



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sister :: mumford & sons
don't test the ones you love it'll only tear us down
if you want to feel alive then learn to love your ground



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03:45 no sleep :: cardigans
i've always been too lame to see what's before me
and i know nothing sweeter than champagne from last new years



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give a little love :: noah and the whale
my heart is bigger than the earth and though life is what gave it love first
life is not all that it's worth cos life is fleeting yeah but i love you



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widths and curves :: ohbijou
our eyes speak of feeling too consumed by all of this
please I am asking for this weight of hearts to lift



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no expectations :: soulsavers
our love was like the water that splashes on a stone
our love is like our music it's here and then it's gone



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.zip & art
 
 
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
Current Music: queen black acid ~ menomena
 
 
aprilvolitionaprilvolition on March 4th, 2011 05:16 am (UTC)
This is fucking poetic and I haven't even downloaded it yet. I WILL DO THAT RIGHT NOW!
Sunny: HP tensionsunny_serenity on March 4th, 2011 07:25 pm (UTC)
lol! well i hope you enjoy it ^_^
borg_princess: snape-enthusiastic-NOTborg_princess on March 4th, 2011 08:33 am (UTC)
I am so overwhelmed by how pretty and epic this is. *applauds* AMAZING.
Sunny: HP Snapesunny_serenity on March 4th, 2011 07:28 pm (UTC)
lol your enthusiasm is well represented by snape's awesome face!

Aradira: HP → Perfect Harmonyaradira on March 4th, 2011 07:05 pm (UTC)
I LOVE what you did here! ♥
Sunny: HP our hollow quietsunny_serenity on March 4th, 2011 07:52 pm (UTC)
I just have a lot of feelings...
fade_in2_dreamsfade_in2_dreams on March 4th, 2011 07:25 pm (UTC)
I'm crying. Just...this is the most beautiful thing and bittersweet and I just can't form full sentences right now. You described everything I feel in your intro and everything in this post is gorgeous and poetic and so perfect. I don't know how to put it into words, but it describes everything so perfectly.
Thank you so much for sharing♥♥
canneverbe: clark only sees lanacanneverbe on March 5th, 2011 02:29 am (UTC)
WOW. This is fabulous!!! I love that line "chocolate weights...metal dial"
nit(ya): doctor who → amy → catch a love.asweetdownfall on March 5th, 2011 05:51 am (UTC)
alnlsglsralasmdgsljtoslemgolf.eksm.df It is far too early in the morn for my soul to get slayed. *_________________*

This looks freaking amazing. And I adore the cover arts. ADOREEEE. Frak, they're so gorgeous.
Daria: Emma W // so I thoughtbanjothequeen on March 5th, 2011 03:06 pm (UTC)
Listening all over again, amazing music choice, really touching and inspiring. I'm in love with this melancholic mood <3
downloading everything, incredible fanmix. I recommended you on my tumblr also <3
itstaysgolditstaysgold on March 5th, 2011 05:49 pm (UTC)
I love angsty mixes like this. TY!!
shusihishusihi on March 6th, 2011 01:16 am (UTC)
asdfghjkl; this is gorgeous.
Most definitely downloading.
albino_octopus: flooralbino_octopus on March 14th, 2011 05:43 am (UTC)
this... oh my god. downloading right now.
jamesiangirl: sbp1jamesiangirl on September 3rd, 2011 11:51 am (UTC)
I was pottering around and stumbled across this - it looks gorgeous. Is there any chance you could upload it again, if you have the time? My need to listen outweighs my sense of propriety at this point!
Sunny: HP subtextsunny_serenity on September 8th, 2011 10:50 pm (UTC)
just fyi, you can totally dl the individual links from box.net too. in any case, i reuploaded the zip after HOURS of hunting, oi, i thought i deleted it there for a sec.